What Did You Want To Be?

What did you want to be in life before the world told you what to be? 

I have struggled with this question.

My default answer use to be that I wanted to be a lawyer (but for all the wrong reasons). I wanted wealth and status. A new car and fancy clothes. 

Don’t get me wrong there is nothing wrong with nice things- I also like them.

There’s nothing wrong with material items being your main motivator; for a time, but it’s not sustainable.

When I left corporate America I had to dig deep to answer this question; and, it’s taken years for me to find the answer.

I always liked people; hence being a (recovering) people pleaser.

But I allowed the world make me bitter for a while.

I was stuck behind a wall (aka a bitchy persona) because I didn’t want to be hurt again.

I wanted people to treat me like I treated them. To be fiercely loyal and accepting. Because I love hard and I’m complicated. I’m caring and call bull shit when necessary.

I have come to understand people aren’t loyal in relationships because they aren’t loyal to themselves.

And, that’s okay.

I’m not here to judge anyone (anymore)- I’m here to meet you with kindness, maybe some advice, and wish you well.

Because, what I wanted to be before the world told me what to be was just and kind.

What did you want to be?💖J

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